I have to write this, it's been brewing in my mind for a fair few days now.

I am an artist.

I've accepted that now. It's been difficult, I'll admit, but I do know how to create things with a pen. I suppose that makes me an artist. Before now I was content to think of myself as a writer.

Flat Comic

Teh Flagship comic. My dream and at the moment my greatest achievement. To Alex: The reason I failed the three comics by Thursday bet was not out of disinterest, it was because I will be damned if I write one of these comics when I'm tired. This is the epiphany of my - of our work - there will be no sub-standard.

Elsewhere, I have been complimented on something that came up completely randomly. Something that has forced me to be creative and draw quickly. To CivCube for creating the thread, and to CivGeneral for keeping me on my toes, and to all the many (and I am so, so humbled) who complimented me - thank you. This has been the thread that reminded me of what I can do when I want to:

Draw Your Own Story

But there is something that came in between. After Flat Comic, which came when I was truly depressed, and before Civfanatics, when I was happy to show off my work, and that is the End of the World News.

To those who don't understand: The MySpace Comic is a continuation of a comic that is very special to me: Duck.  This was the beginning of me love of drawing, of my art, and of my current style. You will see this in time. But for now, thank you immensely to those who have complimented me on the story: to Chris, to Jenny, to Alex, to Naomi, to Kate. It means a helluva lot more than you can possibly imagine.

Drawing is a gift, and it's something that I have and I'm able to admit it. However, at all times, I will stress that being able to draw is nothing, you can draw a bloody stick figure, and if the message behind it means something, you've achieved a goal. It doesn't matter if your Shirt Guy Dom, it doesn't matter if your Van Gogh, art means nothing if you don't have a passion behind it.

Everyone can create art. Everyone can draw - do not ever - ever - say you can't do it. You're letting people down. You're letting yourself down. Every picture is art, every image is important. There is no greater accomplishment than the feeling of happiness that comes when you've created something and think "yeah, that's my best work yet."

But at the same time, you know you can do better, and that's what keeps you going. To strive towards the unknown, to keep pushing yourself, to blast through the danger zone (cheers Sav) and hit that final goal.

I'm sorry to say there is no final goal. There is no masterpiece. Everything can be bettered, But then, to give people inspiration, to give them hope and the desire to discover their own thing, maybe that's the greatest masterpiece of all.

A very, very contemplative Phil out.